Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Maintaining

Well, what a rollercoaster of a last few days.

Firstly weigh-in saw me stay the same, which I was rapped with as I was expecting TOM to knock me around, geez it was a doosie.

Then Sunday we had another get together with my brother to say goodbye and he gave Bethany her Christmas present early, which she absolutely loves. It's a little carry around craft box (like mummy's scrapbook stuff) with paint, pencils, crayons, playdoh and stuff like that. When I took everyone back to mum's after the BBQ, I cried on the way home, praying for him to get over safely.

Then yesterday he left for Sydney. It was a very emotional day for all of us. I saw him in the morning before I went to work, I cried again. Then mum rang me when he did leave, she was crying. He was crying when he left. Mum said he kept looking at Bethany saying "No, I have to go, I have to go" I think Bethany knew it was going to be a while before she saw him again too. She is usually very shy around him because she only sees him like once a month or so. But mum said she kept hugging him and giving him kisses and when he left she stood on the driveway blowing kisses and waving. When I came home she asked me why Nanna and Steve had been crying. I told her that he was going on a big holiday and Steve was sad because he was going to miss everyone especially her. She then said "Steve loves me very much" I cried again.

But I hope all goes well. He phoned in last night to let us know he was safely at his first stop.

I looked back today at my progress for the last year and I weigh practically the same as I did last Christmas. It's funny but last Christmas I was so happy about how much I weighed and how much I had lost. But this year I am disappointed in myself. It's been a whole year and I weigh the same. I know a lot of things have happened and I should be proud that I have been able to maintain for a whole year. But earlier this year I was just 3kg from hitting the 60's and just feel like I should have done better.

But here's hoping next year is a better year. This time next week Christmas will be over and there is no excuse for not climbing back on that big old wagon and starting again.
Posted by Kim :: 8:30 am :: 2 Comments:

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