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Monday, October 31, 2005 Out of Control No matter how hard I am trying, I just can't seem to control my weight at the moment. Weigh-in on Friday saw another gain up to 78.3kg. That's a total gain of 3.4kg since I found out I was pregnant and a grand total of 4.3kg in the 7.5 weeks of pregnancy. I am drinking water, eating lots of fruit, although my exercise is a problem. Only 1 walk last week. I want to go, its just that I feel so tired at the moment that I don't end up going. I really need to start to make a conscious effort to go or my weigh is going to balloon out of control. I know the 80's are coming, I just didn't expect to see them so soon. Another problem is not nausea exactly, but a feeling of not wanting to even think about food. It usually happens in the afternoon. I'm fine right up until 3 o'clockish. Then just thinking about food makes me feel ill. So I put it off, eventhough I am hungry. So I put it off and I put it off until I am so hungry that I actually feel ill. It's like a lose, lose situation. And quite fustrating. And to top it all off, this usually happens when it is time for me to go for a walk. But mustn't complain too much. At this stage when I was pregnant with Bethany I was throwing up morning, noon and night. So I am going to set myself mini goals. And my first one for this week is to walk at least 3 times between today and next Monday. Friday would be better as it is weighin day and I would prefer to do things from week to week but I am starting a bit late. We'll see how I go anyhow. That's enough blabber from me. Geez I'm a scatterbrain. Until later Be Happy 
A New Page Well am proud to say that I have just redone my journal with thanks to a lovely template by Caz. I have changed my journal heading from Time to Try to A New Page. I have done this for a couple of reasons. The first is I have been doing this journey for 663 days now so it is no longer a Time to Try for me as I have been actually doing it. Secondly, with my pregnancy, it is a New Page in my life with many adjustments to make and a new time to see if I can keep a handle on my weight over the next few months. Speaking of my weight, I weighed in on Friday at 77kg, so my weight has gone up yet again. Although, doing mid-week weighin this morning and I have actually maintained that weight since Friday so I am happy and not stressing out. I went for my scan on Friday and was a little disappointed. You see, when I was pregnant with Bethany, I had some problems around 6 weeks and was sent for an emergency scan to see if everything was OK. To do this, they had to do an internal (to much info, I know) but I got to see her little heart beating. So when I went for this ultrasound, I couldn't see her heart. I started to panic and stress out but they told me it was normal but eventhough my and the doctors calculations had me a 6 weeks and 3 days, they told me I am somewhere around 5-6 weeks so am being sent back for another scan in 2 weeks, so I should see something then. I was enough to scare me though. Bethany was funny. She saw the screen and knew what it meant, but couldn't put together that it was my tummy. So we have had to explain things to her. Peter is just as funny. Last night they had sausages while I had steak. Bethany wanted to know why I wasn't having sausages. Peter's explaination "You know the bubby in mummy's tummy, well it can't eat sausages" I totally lost it. Well enough of all that. I swore to myself that I wasn't going to bore all of you with these details but it was just so funny. Was planning a good day of exercise today but the weather had totally turned rotten with gale winds and yukky black clouds. Might just have to use the stepper. I am totally into maintaining this weight this week, just to prove I can do it. Until later, Be Happy
Feeling fine! Well it's Thursday and I'm actually feeling quite good! First of all my eating for the last 2 days. TUESDAY Breakfast: 1 piece of toast and a sml yogo Snacks: 1 apple, 1 banana Lunch: sml chips shared with Bethany while shopping Snack: sml jelly Tea: chinese rice, noodles and stirfry Snack: bag of chocolate covered licorice Not too bad but went down hill after dinner WEDNESDAY Breakfast: 1 piece of toast and a sml yogo Snacks: 1 apple, 1 banana Lunch: boiled egg & salad sandwich (yummy) Snack: sml yogo Tea: Pork Shnitzel & vegies Snack: Jelly & ice cream Bit better than Tuesday! As for the exercise I didn't end up walking Tuesday. Yesterday afternoon I was resting on the lounge thinking I won't go today either, I can go Thurs, Fri & Sat and still get 4 days of walking for the week. Then 5 mins later I thought, that's not good enough go now! So I did and it felt so good. I am not quite doing the 2 laps of my block I used to but I almost made it. Given maybe another 5 mins I would have so not too bad. I am really looking forward to my scan tomorrow. Bethany has seen hers in her scrapbook and knows what they are. Everytime she sees a lady on TV having one she says "she has a baby in her tummy" so when she sees it tomorrow she will know as we haven't told her yet. Although I am not looking forward to holding the water. I have been practising since Monday drinking at least a litre of water and holding it for as long as possible. I made it 40mins yesterday but I need to do an hour. At least it has been making sure I get at least a litre a day. Have also been doing some work on a new layout for my journal. I don't think a lot of people are reading at the moment so a fresh new approach and relaunch are need I think. I also don't think my website is being used much anymore either so might set it all up with links through my journal so I don't need the old geocities site. Might take a few days, but I'll get there. Hope all is well with everyone out in cyberland. It's a lovely 26 degree day today so I am dying to make the most of it. Bethany picked our first ripe cherry tomato from our vegie garden yesterday. Might go and do some weeding today. It's supposed to rain tomorrow (on my day off, typical) so must get everything out of today. Until later, Be Happy
The fog is lifting Sorry for the lack of updates since last week. Have just been trying to get organised and settle some family issues with my brother and stuff. I really haven't had a riviting journal over the last few months have I but I think sometimes you just need to take a step back, get things organised and come back with new energy. A big thank you to all of you out there that have stuck with me through this time. Well weigh-in on Friday wasn't the greatest. Am now 76.1, so 2.1kg gained in 5.5 weeks. Am now looking at not trying to lose that, but maintain it for the next few weeks, just till it all balances out. I did end up going for a total of 3 x 30min walks last week, so just 1 under what I aimed to do. Today I have decided to start to record my eating. Not with points and stuff, but just so I can be accountable for what's going into my mouth. Over the last couple of weeks I have just been stuffing this and that in with not much thought to it. I have had 1 x 30min walk so far this week and this morning I did 10mins on the stepper before walk and will be doing another 30min walk today. Have also been thinking about overhauling my blog page. Need to get it up to date. It is taking some adjustment to think that I am not trying to lose weight at the moment. My weightloss is all I have thought about since January last year. That's 21 months and now it's all on hold. And when just a couple of weeks ago the Biggest Loser had me pumped, I now think "I wish I could do that". I am also envious of all you guys out there, especially Jules and Paulene who are just doing so awesome at the moment. But then I think, I am on a 8 month break. Taking some time out while I extend my family. In this time I can think about how I can improve my weightloss when this time is over and by the time my pregnancy is over I should be really hanging out to get back to it. Let's just hope I don't put on too much during it. I only put on 10kg with Bethany but that was thanks to some killer morning sickness. So my aim now is to be healthy and happy. Enjoy this time. Eat as well as I can manage but not come down on myself for any slip-ups. Exercise as much as I can without over-doing it and just enjoy the exercise I do get. And finally, be happy. So much has happened this year within my immediate family (brother, sister & mother) that just makes me grateful for what I have. So now for my new sign-off. I can't keep trying at the moment so my new sign-off: Be Happy Kim
Doing my best Well I am trying to be good, although I wish my appetite would behave. Have been good during the morning until about 1pm. I have cereal, then about every 2 hours snack on a banana, then an apple, then get home and have a sandwich. It is when I get home that chocolate biscuits and twisties find their way into my mouth. Can't just blame my eating either. Haven't really been outstanding on the exercise front. Went for my walk on Saturday, like I mentioned in my last entry, and haven't been since. I keep making excuses not to go. I did do 10mins on mum's stepper on Monday though. So I gave myself a good talking to last night. I'm pregnant, not injured. There is no reason at all I can't do what I need to do. Our weather is warming up, so I will walk at least 4 times a week. I really want to do it everyday but if I can manage 4 times I will be happy. It's 4 times as much as I did last time. Salads will also come into play more often. At least my fruit intake has been good. Oh, so has my water. As of this minute, I have drunk 2 litres since Monday morning and still going. I have been nana-napping though. Only like 10-15 minute power naps each day, just enough to give me a boost. Well that's enough dribble for today. Will have to update my website and this page with pregnancy details. I took my measurements on Friday morning and will continue to monitor them. Also a big hello to Paulene who finally made the 90's on Monday. She has done sooo well with her challenge so far and there's only more to come. And also to Kate who has announced today that she, too, is pregnant! And at this stage there is only half a week between our due dates. I will know for sure when I have my scan next Friday. Geez it's been a big week for a lot of people. Just thinking about it all makes me tired (LOL) Until later Bye
Things looking so much clearer now. Firstly, I really must apologise for my lack of updates last week. Had quite a lot going on and a lot to get my head around. Friday, I weighed in at 74.8kg, which is a 1kg gain from the previous week, but a 1kg loss since the Monday as at Monday last week when I did mid-week weigh-in I was 75.8, so am pretty happy with that. Now for some interesting news. It explains quite a bit why I have been having problems the last few weeks with my weight. You see, I am pregnant! Yes you read that right. I am 5 weeks as of today. I wasn't going to tell all of you yet, you know, wait til 12 weeks and all, but I am just busting to tell people. We haven't even told our families yet! So you are all privvy to special news. I also thought that if I can't be totally honest with you all about this, how am I supposed to continue this journal honestly. So there you go. Tracking back 5 weeks I was at 74kg. So that is my starting weight. So far I have gained 800g. My goal now is to ensure I have a nice healthy pregancy. I was 20kg heavier when I got pregnant with Bethany so that helps quite considerably. I have talked to my doctor and I am going to continue 30min walks, just not so briskly. I am also allowed to continue to use mum's stepper, but I have to take it easy. I am drinking heaps of water and lots of fruit & vegies and that is my plan. Saturday, I went for my first walk since finding out and geez it was weird. I keep telling myself to take it easy, its harder than you think to slow it down. Today I have brought an apple, banana and cut up watermelon to work. So I am trying. Have been stressing a bit though. You see, when I was pregnant with Bethany, I knew from the day of conception. I got sick straight away and had all the early symptoms. This time I had no idea. So I have eaten food that is naughty, like cold deli meats, thickshake at Macdonalds and cheesecake(unsure about the cheesecake, I know you are not supposed to have soft, mould ripened cheese). I also discovered last night that I am not supposed to be carrying Bethany anymore and I have been on a daily basis Even first thing this morning I forgot and carried her out of bed. Apparently, you are not supposed to lift anything heavier that 11kg. So until I have my scan at the end of next week, all of these situations are running through my head, making me worry. Well that's about it for now. Well not really, I've got a hundred things running through my head but I won't bore you anymore. Was really looking forward to being a size 12 this Christmas. But I am really excited about buying real maternity clothes. I had to make my own last time as I couldn't find any in my size or if I did, they cost a fortune. Told you my heads all over the place. Am really signing off now. Will catch you all tomorrow. Until later Bye
biglegs Well here I am after another weekend to report the same old... failure again but I have had enough. It is getting beyond a joke and I have no-one to blame but myself. Friday started off great. It was weighin and was extatic with a 200g loss after my previous bad weekend. I had a 3 point brekky, did 3.5hours walking around our big shopping centre and had subway for lunch eventhough it was free day. Then I treated myself to a bag of licorice (I didn't get my usual licorice showbag so it was a comprimise). Had sausages and vegies for tea and then caved to some unplanned Tim Tams. It was free day and I didn't do too bad. Saturday is when things started to go downhill. Had a 4 point breakfast. Then we started getting visitors as it was Peters birthday on Sunday but had people coming on Saturday. Had 1 scone with jam & cream with the visitors and then a sandwich for lunch. Then went to movies where a bag of twisties was shared and a Wonka bar was eaten (damn I'm hooked on them). Then we went out for Chinese for tea. Sunday had a 6 point breakky (hubby made scrambled eggs but added grated cheese, but no excuses remember) had takeaway for lunch, birthday cake, lasagne and vegies for tea and then another piece of birthday cake (see can't blame anyone else but me) And here I am, not only PMSy (had a nice cry last night over nothing) but bloated from my own stupidity. But I swear everyone, it is going to stop. It is a new month and the old stuff is all done and gone with nothing but new beginnings for me. I have just read Paulene's last few entries and I feel so lazy compared to her. She is out there, busting her butt because she wants to do it and here I am going for the occasional walk expecting the same. WELL NOT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!! Also, to make my frame of mind even worse Pete took this photo of me yesterday while we were playing with Bethany.  Told you my legs are a BIG problem! Well here to fresh new starts and a better outlook on life. Until tomorrow Bye
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